The Cowgirl

Winter of 2009

So, I did meet someone, in person.  I also slept with her–actually saying that we had crazy sex for hours with no sleep is a better descriptor.  It had been 14-months for her, so both of us had not been with a woman in a really long time, and it was great to be back in that saddle again.

Something kind of funny is that the night before, my friend from out of town was with me at one of the lesbian bars in my town and I saw a girl that I used to hang out with sometimes.  She talked with me for awhile and asked if I was dating anyone, and I told her no, but that I did have a date the following day.  I eluded to it being a long time and she said, “Yeah, but you’re really picky.”  After that, I was thrilled that was the “word” about me in this town with 22 lesbians in it (Remember that they all talk too.).

I’m not sure when I’ll see this woman again.  She is cool, down-to-earth, and has the most beautiful eyes.  I’m a sucker for that feature, but hers are huge, blue-green, and her eyelashes go on for days.  We had great conversation too.  There is simply nothing crazy-making about her and that feels good.

I’ve been crushing on this girl who I have exchanged words with just a few times, but the last time that I saw her, she gave me this miniscule hug said that it was good to see me and moved on.  She had never touched me before, so it was disarming and then was just odd.  We could have at least talked.

This other girl keeps me in the queue and has just sent me an e-mail saying that she has finally broken up with her partner.  I’m not taking that bait.  I’m not in anyone’s seconds pile and don’t want to wait around for someone who takes me casually, but likes the ego strokes. 

Women who I know are generally so flighty.  What I like about this girl is that she is grounded.  I like this contrast between her and these other two girls.  She seems easy, but is still very fun.

She was laying next to me, and said, “I’ve never done this.  I usually get to know someone.”  I told her that we are getting to know each other, and that since we aren’t 14, we can sleep with each other anytime that we’d like.  I believe that too, and this relationship should just unfold the way that it needs too.  I had an excellent weekend.