I had a wonderful day at work yesterday and it felt like a different planet in comparison. I’m grateful for it. This night is pretty long for me and I work 11-hours, but I will always hold that working even 14 is waaaay easier than parenting. That is a full-time job that can push every single button that you have and never ceases.
I’m trying to get my dinner party scheduled. I was excited to do it over President’s Day, but one couple is going to be out of town. This was the first holiday weekend that I would not have my son all school year too. I’m hoping that two weeks earlier will work for all the other couples.
I have a little cold. Everyone at work is really sick, and I am doing well with just getting extra sleep and eating a ton. I must have some issues about that though, because I had a weird dream wherein I got together with a friend who I have not seen since June and she was saying to me, “You sure lost a lot of weight quickly and now you gained it back.” In the dream, I knew that I really hadn’t gained any weight, but kept looking at the legs of my jeans anyway. I guess that means that although I get home really late tonight, that I need to do cardio. I will. It’s not that I’m neurotic about exercise, I can skip, but skipping often makes me feel weird if it goes on for days at a time. I’m well enough to workout tonight.
This particular friend who I dreamt about and I have had some major differences over the years, but the good thing is that we were able to talk about them. I don’t trust her explicitly, but I like to hang out with her on occasion and we laugh. She is the one who worked with the woman who introduced me to my ex ultimately. She said that she is hosting a happy hour in a couple of weeks. I will go if it happens. She is really funny, but I don’t like her treatment of her husband and she talks a ton of smack about people and used to keep folks around for comic relief. That’s not my thing. I have a close circle of friends, and don’t need to surround myself with people who I have to feel superior to, because I like to be with people who are easy and fun.
I woke up happy without the aid of the alarm. I have been up an hour so far. I’m trying to troubleshoot some problems with my laptop on my own, but may call for support this weekend. I don’t even have class this weekend! I need to see who I can eat dinner with on Saturday night. The one friend with whom I wanted to connect is now out of town, so we shall see. I don’t want to work and organize all weekend, but would rather keep things in balance. I feel very good about where I am right now and want to stay here as well as possible.
One of my next goals is that I really want to expand my circle of lesbians and have been wanting to for sometime. It seems like when they get a new relationship, they really do drop away. Hopefully, if their relationships continue on a smooth trajectory, they will reach out. One of my friends has been dating the same girl since late summer and I haven’t even met her yet, and she has been my buddy for five-years! As I am a firm believer in energy, I want to be surrounded by solid couple energy, so I really hope that I can get all the couples at my dinner party. I know that we will have fun. I want to do lots of things to keep this goodness ride goin’