So, maybe I don’t listen fully. I think that I have been rendered so much on the defensive–honestly, it’s like warding off blows–that I’m probably just talking to deflect. I know that I’m not a bully though. That is complete shit.
I have this book on keys to a strong and loving marriage, and I think that I do a lot of the things in it that are good, but I obviously don’t listen enough to her. That seems to be her strongest complaint. That I’m selfish and don’t listen or do I respond to her needs is what she says when she is telling me why she is not sure that she wants to invest any time in it. There are these A’s that you can follow when you have a chronically angry partner. They are to agree, apologize, and then add. So, it would look like this I think, “I can follow through on making sure that I have tied up loose ends that I promised this weekend. I’m sorry that I didn’t make it a priority. I felt like I would get around to it, but things were so shaky in January and February that I went remote.”
I think that it’s hard to listen well all the time. However, I do want to give this a fair shot over the next two months. I do love her. I don’t know if we can or if she would even like to do so. I can’t control her, but would like to see if we can rebuild our foundation and get back to what’s important, which is simply loving each other.
Sounds like struggle – what do you love about her?
Our first three-months… These last three have been pretty inconsistent and shitty though, tbh. I may have to bounce. Thanks for reading.