Gotta stick to it

What a weird weekend.  I was so, so, sad too.  I even cried hard on Saturday and was a little teary yesterday as well.  I have  a first grader so the news was just too much for me.  Anyway, I think that is why somethings that she said, and did, kinda hit me in waves and I have decided now that some manner of friendship is what is appropriate with a woman like her.  What she usually does is begins with our contrasts and she told me that I’m not very productive, and that’s not true, so I’m not even giving that much thought.

It started when I confronted her about what I have been feeling, and that is that she is being pursued by someone.  It’s her ex that married the man and moved away, and she said that if she divorces him and moves closer she can be a good parent to her son.  That is bizarre, because she is supposed to be mentally ill and all that, and I would want a helluva  lot more from a second mother to my own son, but what the hell do I know?  She went on and on too about the way that she smelled, how she would have candles lit, and how their lifestyles went together.  So, just reconcile with her, ok?

When she gets physical, it is seemingly out of nowhere and I can’t read it, and I don’t really initiate because that has caused us problems and then she made fun of me when I was shocked.  She also mocked the way I look with my hair up.  She is too conflicted.  I really did the right thing by breaking up with her at the end of September.  I should try to avoid sex with her when the calendar changes to a New Year too, and I think that I can very easily.

I like my improvements in physical fitness that I’ve made and will probably ask her for some advice.  I like some of the domestic things that I have adopted from being with her.  Ultimately, I want to be treated really well and loved for who I am.

2 thoughts on “Gotta stick to it

  1. lanie belluz says:

    Take care of yourself in the new year – it doesn’t sound like this person is very nice to you. You drive all that way to see her and she critisizes your production level (which, I feel anyone taking care of themselves and their child is VERY productive)?

    • TomBoy says:

      Hey, it’s really good to hear from you again.

      She is hot and cold and has always been that way for nearly a year. That piece is full of shit. I don’t know anyone who works full time, conducts assessments, is writing a dissertation, is in practicum nights and keeps up single parenting a first grader and running our household.

      She has unresolved issues and a complicated journey. I’m looking for an easier path. Thank you, thank you!

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