I’m not sure if there is a script for this whole looking thing. I wish that I could say that I can do completely casual for a a long time. However, if I think back to every girl who I slept with the exception of the little liar, I have to be very attracted to a girl in order to date her. So, when I reflect further, it’s maybe not possible to have tons of hang outs with single girls. I don’t do well with anything open. I wonder if I can be very attracted to several girls at once.
Maybe it subsides when you learn that… She chews with her mouth open or she doesn’t wash her hands with soap? I don’t know. I do know that as soon as I’m in a relationship with a girl, I don’t even look. One of my best friends calls me “bizarrely monogamous.” I just think that I work hard and pour myself into things very strongly, so I don’t have energy to expend that is significant in different directions.
Something interesting happened with one of my clients lately. She told me about how she originally didn’t like a girl who became her best friend, and then over the course of a year, her “best friend” did some really shady shit to her. I came to that she has good intuition and should not ignore it–meaning that she knows quickly who is who. I told her that is her lesson and that is never to second-guess because she gets people quickly.
I know that I can’t follow a script, but I get people quickly too. I won’t rush my year-before-living-together, but I will trust that I know. My ex did push and pull and wordsmithed what I wrote and later what I said within two weeks. The little liar just didn’t “feel right” to me and I succumbed to her pursuit games. And hell, I met the drunk, in a BAR! I wish that there was a factory approach to finding an incredible girl, but it just doesn’t seem to work that way in the world of dating.