My wife and I had gotten married in NM where it was legal. One of her sisters was pregnant at the time. She and I had toyed with her carrying a baby that we would be parenting together. You know: give my son a sibling. We all stayed in a huge condo together in NM and cooked meals together and the like. Listening to her sister and her husband romanticize and frankly, idealize and fantasize about parenting propelled me into talking through what parenting is with my wife on the 5-hour drive home. We decided not to have kids.

I’ve worked 72-81 hours a week lots of weeks. I’m actually a workhorse. People call me that. Working is really easy, and I am able to do a lot of it. Parenting involves active and psychic burdens daily. Sometimes hourly. Is he going to vape in the bathroom on this co-located campus with younger students? Is he going to get distracted and avoid class and work that he has to complete for graduation? Who knows?

I’m sure that some people have kids who go to class, work, and do chores. I’m sure that exists. I can imagine that there are those who do not actively defy just like breathing in and out. That hasn’t been my experience. He actually tried to bust out of my womb when he was 8-months in utero. I have permanent scars around my ribcage that look like blue lines wherein he would push his feet anytime I was sitting.