So, I was floored. I got mean. I apologized. I want to hold that she didn’t come at me from a place of love, but at first that we had a shelf life, which colored the whole conversation and fucking crushed me. I think at this age that you don’t fit neatly into a woman’s life. It’s also complicated when you are blending kids that you birthed independent of one another and have dreams for them.
1. Someone to build a life WITH me and being willing to make compromises
5. Sees good in me
6. Adaptable and balanced with her approach to things
I’m going to ask if I can come to her on Friday and play with her son on Saturday this weekend. I’m actually going to do it right now. I am not as raw as I was that she didn’t approach me from a place of love now, because love for her bike and lake is greater because it’s longer-term. That is actually a good analogy for most things.