I’m so glad that it’s Friday. I guess that I will have to get antibiotics–I don’t think that I’ve had this kind for sickness since 2003–if the cough is still here and bad on Monday. I haven’t done any exercise at all less some walking and it sucks. I know that you shouldn’t have this much gunk and not sleep through the night in a week, but I hate doctors and medical intervention in general. I will have to go though, if the weekend is like the week has been on the health front. There are times of day when I can’t complete sentences without coughing. I swim with my son at a bday party on Saturday afternoon, and then two Moms who have a son are making us dinner. That makes for a good Saturday. Sunday is busy because I have to do the announcements at church, so I have to get up really early because my friends who I had dinner with last month are coming to the eleven service with me. I think that one of my best buddies and her neighbor are as well. I may have to make extra brunch food on Sunday morning in case they want to come over afterward as well.
I’m happy and balanced. I had one of those weird shifts on Wednesday night and I wrote in pen about my relationship history. Over the last six-years, I have been with six different women in some fashion of trying to see if a relationship was possible. I was with Shane for two-years–she wanted to marry me–and with Bette, I guess, for a year and some change. I guess, because I slept with Peter Pan when Bette and I didn’t see each other during the summer. Sometimes I’ve been with girls for two months, and another time, I have been with a girl for two years. Before Bette and I reconnected, I had my eight or nine day thing, but it was a Fix-me-Ms.-Rebound. Sadly, that worked, and I don’t want that right now.
A very good friend of mine is on the “I don’t want a relationship bus,” right now and has been going on dates. She had fallen in love with a guy last year, and it turns out that he sleeps with all kinds of different women and is unlikely to ever move from a neighboring state. She shed a lot of tears over him and really wanted to be his #1. They have great conversations. Now, she just sleeps with him when he’s in town visiting his children, and when she leaves town to visit her sister and nieces, but her heart isn’t involved. That seems like a safe thing really.
I took a walk with a friend last night while my son played in the park. We just made loops so we could supervise him. I talked about wanting to meet tons of girls to chill with and maybe to expand my social circle. I don’t know about my winter of celibacy moving into spring or not. My friend is really funny, and logged into my laptop and started reading a Strictly Platonic ad on Craigslist. It said something to the effect of, “Hey, let’s meet up and if something develops that’s great too. I’m an Aquarius, and I can quickly piss off a Virgo…” I cracked up, and she was confused. I said, “That’s what I am! And that is true. Look how long my son had his Nerf gun before he destroyed the inner workings of the housing with sand.” I do things the conventional way, and my son does things any way and argues about strange things. I don’t think that I have ever said, “I’m not going to engage in this. I care too much,” more than I did last night. He is a nut. I love him, but wouldn’t want anything like that in female form.
It’s funny because church girl said that she is loving being single and not tending to a relationship. I like this time of silence as well, and can take care of stuff for school and clinical hours without having to explain my schedule. However, being an extrovert, I’d be fine with meeting up for dinner, hikes, movies, beers, biking, or day trips with new girls. I’m doing a microbrew and food sampling fest next Saturday. I’m not going with friends either, and just will probably start at the bar and the mosey about some. I’d like to do a film festival with discussions too. I may do some Meetups at some point. I just have zero interest in dating sites. People tell you what you want to hear, and really just want to get laid. Not to be arrogant, but if I stay around a bar until 1, I can do that any night of the week, but that’s just not what I’m seeking anymore. Frankly, connection has become too important to me.