I tried a longer than I should have hike with my climbing partner yesterday… When we got to the ridge line and could see the peak, we didn’t have much left. There were a lot of factors and his poor dog was actually bleeding on his pads, so we did turn back. I was pretty rubbery in my legs given the stress that we had to get there, and really too unsteady on the ridgeline to continue, but I always feel incredible with that level of exertion afterward. Right now, I’m groggy because we had severe storms last night and I was up for an hour in the middle of the night and was sore from hiking straight up 10-miles. Coffee and doing very little will help, and then with my new found energy, I will clean and pay bills. I’ll include some scenery here:
I had a good day with the guy who is like my little brother though, and hope for many more over the next two months. I’m getting back up high on Saturday with my son’s godmother as well. I ought to have a good focus for the next several weeks and hope that I can take this energy into August with me.
I wish that she would examine with me what can be corrected and get very real about what she wants. I know that regardless of what would transpire this next year, that we need some professional guidance because of the level of dissonance that she is caught in with respect to wanting a relationship and then being unable to navigate the stress that being in one causes her. I can’t explore anything with her unless a couple hours a month are spent in couples work. I’d like to say that I can take her back, but I can’t with her lack of understanding that I just don’t want sex, I want connection with her and can’t see weekly a corpse.
Knowing what you want and need out of a relationship is half the battle sometimes. It sounds like you are on the path of doing what is good for your mind body and soul. Great stuff good luck on your journey
Thank you so much. I do know what could help, and I hope that we get the chance. I appreciate your comments and reading my entry.