What will I do if I still feel this way after next fall? It has been so beastly hot as of late that I will just be glad for the season to turn, but honestly if she continues to hold so much weight over my heart, what will I do? Nothing seems to help. We were so damn happy last fall, and nothing compares to the way that I felt then or how much of myself I gave to her. I’m not sure when or if those conditions could be met again. I could do some low maintenance thing with a girl, but I probably could not give too much of myself and that is not fair. The last girl who I dated was just too needy and thought that she was beyond reproach, but I wonder what would happen if I met a really incredible girl? Would I even “see” her? I’m incredulous. I wish that there was some way for my ex and I to actually be together and enjoy each other without rancor. I am still in love with her.