I should probably be scared. But, I’m not. I have not been paralyzed with fear in nearly two-years. I got through that phase of my life and am grateful to be here as a result of all the learning that I’ve done.
We talked on the phone for an hour last night, and then I didn’t want to lift weights. She made me feel relaxed, loved, listened to, and appreciated. I’m loving this relationship. She had spent the night down here with us the night before, and I loved seeing her leave for work and knowing that she was mine.
I’m going to take her to dinner and a musical at one of the high schools where a boy who I work with attends next Saturday. When you’re queer, at times, you just move into an ltr, and that is definitely what I did. I did that with my ex who I refer to as Bette, but otherwise, I have adopted organic development and flow.
Never thought that the timing would align and I would get my chance with her. The circumstances don’t even particularly feel like a chance. She is really smart, so when we talked after I got my Dear John email nearly three-weeks ago, she asked for my email address and sent me some information about planetary shifts that were occurring over that particular weekend. I was hurt about the method of breakup from the woman who I had dated, so I confided what I wanted to say to her. Then she said, “you’re a major catch and you deserve someone who treats you as such.”
Those were all the words of encouragement that I ever needed. I was going to pursue her given those phrases being my green light. Little did I know that in that particular email, when she scheduled a time with her Mom and boyfriend for us to cook and be together on a Saturday, she “knew that we’d be together by then.” I like that. I like that until I went there on the 8th of September–I didn’t know her Mom at that point because she and her ex-girlfriend had been housesitting for her and her Mom’s boyfriend–I had not let my more pointed crush begin. I wanted to tell her that day that I wanted to be with her, but neither of us dealt with it that day. It took six more weeks. I’m so lucky that I didn’t let desire take me over when she was in a relationship. Now, we will all be there at the house with her family, and we are as we should be.
- She’s confident
- She’s beautiful
- She is pure light
- Her mouth, body, and eyes are incredibly beautiful
- Her skin deserves its own category of reverence
- She’s bright
- She’s funny
- We have an amazing intimate connection
- She wants a real ltr
- She is not scared of conflict
Well, I’m sold. There is no way that my 40th birthday will pass and I’ll not ask her to be my partner. I would like to do that in July at some point. I want it to have a reason behind the date…